I am the product of a two tier system. While the gifted and able strutted their
stuff quoting Shakespeare, conjugating verbs and solving quadratic equations,
the less gifted and unable were given a less challenging syllabus.
I was ungifted and unable – apparently. Not a label I would attach to myself, it was
given to me on my arrival at secondary school (High School).
In Primary School (Elementary) I hadn’t really had the
chance to shine. The headmaster, Mr
Cobbly, operated a system whereby he identified the high fliers and pulled them
up a year to his class. That required some
of the low fliers to surrender their tables and take a seat next door. It was
like being demoted.
It was something you actually volunteered to do. You were not told to move class but the
request was issued. I didn’t want to go,
but my friend at the time was a very giving and generous kind of child and I
found it hard to make friends in those days so when she stuck up her hand I followed. Imagine asking a ten year old to make
decisions like that about their education.
So, I never made it to Mr Cobbly’s class. When the time came to allocate pupils to
streamed classes in secondary school, I was placed in the middle stream. Mr Cobbly’s class mostly made it into the top
stream. I was not in his class so I didn’t
make it. Yes, it rankles.
Being in the middle stream we were denied access to “O”
levels. We took CSEs which were designed
for the less able. An “A” in a CSE was
the equivalent to an “O” level pass. The
only “O” level I sat and passed was Religious Studies. The RE teacher refused to play by the
rules. He took us on to do “A” level
over the next couple of years.
I really don’t know if I was working at the right
level. I know that I hated the
label.
At the start of fourth year we were reorganised into two
streams rather than three, and I worked my socks off to make sure I was not in
the bottom stream. Getting into the top
stream really meant the bottom of the top – not just the top. I was still barred from “O” levels. Being at the bottom of the top the CSE path
was my only route to qualifications.
I suppose that I didn’t really help my cause. I wasn’t the best student for the most
part. My biology jotter was filled with
stories I wrote instead of the required notes on the life of plants or diagrams
of the innards of frogs. Homework was
just something I rarely did.
Sometimes when we look back at things we have a tendency
to say that it didn’t really do any harm.
There are some things that may not have any harm – but neither did they
do any good.
I came through the system relatively
unscathed. My CSEs and my one “O” level
and one “A” level were made to work for me in getting into teacher training
college. I wore blinkers when it came
to what I wanted to be when I grew up. A
part of me wanted to prove that I was both gifted and able. After over thirty years of teaching I
seriously doubt at times that I am either gifted or able! (Hail the wisdom that
comes with age.)
It must have been about half way through my teacher
training course I discovered the sheer delight of learning. Something cerebral took place – neurons fired
possibly for the first time. Old habits
of memorising things gave way to pulling information apart to find its heart
and build it back up in a way that I could relate to it, make sense of and pass
it on to others.
I would like to think that the middle stream made
it. I’d like to think that we surmounted
the hurdles and exceeded expectations. I’d
like to think that the labels came off in the washing machine of life.
From the other side of the desk I think that going back to
those days really isn’t a good idea.
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